Monday, November 26, 2012
Happily Ever After
I have always liked this wall. To me it speaks of love and commitment and lots of joy.
When we received word of the grandson's initial cancer diagnosis, for some reason a picture came into my mind of the oldest daughter returning to their home from the hospital, opening the door and being confronted by that wall.
I considered the impact it would have on her.
When she walked into her house and read those words what would she think?
Would she feel that they were a mockery? an unfulfilled wish? a blatant lie? the end of a dream?
Would they fill her with more pain and sorrow? My mother's heart broke at the very thought.
When we arrived in California and I took my first look at this wall, I will admit that many of those thoughts passed through my mind.
I can honestly say that I spent some time considering how difficult it would be to remove the writing from the wall before the daughter ever had to read it again.
Then we went to the hospital and I saw the grandson and the daughter and the son-in-law.
I saw the love and the commitment of two struggling, but faithful parents.
I saw the sweet little boy who has brought, and will always bring, a special joy to our family.
I still questioned the "happily ever after" ending to their story, but the urgency to permanently remove those words from their home lessened immensely. I was willing to let them stay right where they were for the time being.
Each day, as I came down the stairs, or entered the house, I looked at that wall and each day I tried to make peace with the thoughts the words evoked.
At times they spoke of hope and seemed to hold a promise that there would still be a fairy tale ending to this tale.
At other times they seemed to laugh in my face and question my grasp on reality,
but more and more I knew that I wouldn't be the one to decide if they stayed or not.
The words would greet my daughter when she returned home.
Their fate would be her decision, not mine.
Today I went to the daughter's blog to see if she had updated and once again saw those words. This time emblazoned across the top of her post - Happily Ever After. As I read what she had written, and then the talk by Elder Dieter F. Uchtdorf that she referred to, I realized the decision had been made.
The peace came.
The words will stay, right where they have always belonged.
There are times in my life when I feel foolish.
When I realize that my children will teach me much more in my lifetime than I can ever hope to teach them.
When I remember what I already knew, but managed to forget for a short time.
The day the oldest daughter and the son-in-law became a family was not the end of the story, but an exciting and promising chapter in the book. What is taking place in their lives right now is also just another segment of that story, albeit a more heart wrenching and tear jerking section. And most likely there will be a lot more happy and harrowing, sad and silly, tender and tedious chapters to follow.
Life is meant to be like that and the "happily ever after" ending comes right where it belongs - at the END,
which I wholeheartedly believe is where the next book will begin.
The sequel, filled with "happily ever after" moments and eternal life, the culmination of the trilogy.
"The Father's plan of happiness for His children includes not only a premortal and mortal life but also an eternal life as well, including a great and glorious reunion with those we have lost. All wrongs will be righted, and we will see with perfect clarity and faultless perspective and understanding."
"From the limited perspective of those who do not have knowledge, understanding or faith in the Father's plan - who look at the world only through the lens of mortality with its wars, violence, disease, and evil - this life can seem depressing, chaotic, unfair, and meaningless. Church leaders have compared this perspective with someone walking into the middle of a three-act play. Those without knowledge of the Father's plan do not understand what happened in the first act, or the premortal existence, and the purposes established there; nor do they understand the clarification and resolution that come in the third act, which is the glorious fulfillment of the Father's plan." Elder Quentin L. Cook, "The Songs They Could Not Sing".
"'And they all lived happily ever after' is never written into the second act. That line belongs in the third act when the mysteries are solved and everything is put right." Elder Boyd K. Packer.
This mortal life, like any fairy tale, will be filled with its share of happy moments - feasts and balls, love and learning, singing and selfless service, but it will also include adversity, trials and temptations - wicked witches, poisoned apples, thorns and thistles, debilitating "curses" and even death.
It has to be that way. That's how we learn.
It is all part of a loving author's plan for each of our lives and how we get to our "Happily Ever After" ending.
Grab on to a friend's hand and the Savior's hand and lets go live our story the best we can, so its culmination will bring the ending we are hoping for, the ending which our Heavenly Father has prepared for us - never ending happiness and eternal life.
Today I am thankful for
my knowledge of God's plan of happiness.
a visit to the skin and cancer center. It is wonderful to, once a year, be praised for and congratulated on my perfect, pale, pasty white skin.
a visiting teaching companion that makes the appointments, prepares the lesson and brings the treat.
the odd junk items I have lying around the house. They entertain the cats and I don't have to waste my money on cat toys.
a daughter, who chose to fulfill her church calling despite her own trials, and learned something that she then decided to share so I could be reminded of something I needed to remember. Amazing how that all works.
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Moving Forward
Today the big news was the possibility of everyone going home on Friday. This is both exciting and frightening at the same time. Shad's response to the announcement was, "No thank you. I will just stay here." I think in some ways that would describe the oldest daughter's feelings as well.
While the hospital is not really where anyone wants to stay forever, it does come with it's perks. It is a safe, isolated, somewhat predictable enviroment that is stocked with all the necessary supplies and conveniently located to all the doctors, medications and equipment that Shad might have need of. It comes complete with trained professionals to handle any problems that may arise, consistent food delivery and a competent and entertaining cleaning lady to top it all off. Shad is enjoying the special order menu and almost unlimited movie watching time and the McDonalds in the basement is also a nice addition.
Performance expectations are pretty low for mom and Shad most of the time in the hospital. Mom has been handling her supporting role exceptionally well and has gotten used to the routine of just being the observer, cheerleader and hugger while the doctors and nurses do their jobs. Going home thrusts mom into the driver's seat as primary caregiver and this job comes with a lot of unknowns and new responsibilities in addition to all of the usual household chores that will still need to be done. It seems a little overwhelming even before you add in all the trips to the doctor that will be necessary.
CHANGE IS HARD (that's why the grandson has been wearing the same socks for 5 days now), but it's time to be moving forward and forward we will go.
Tomorrow I get to move forward all the way back to Arizona. Leaving the hospital, ie. Shad and his family, is hard for me too. Really hard.
Good news though while we are on the topic of moving forward. We are proud of the son-in-law who found out this week that he passed the test to became an E5. I'm not totally sure what all this entails, but it is a rank advancement that brings him more responsibility and more money and means he is moving forward in his chosen career. Way to Go!
Today I am thankful
for a promised visit from Shad's friend Lily tonight. It got him to do a lot of things he didn't want to do today. I'm also thankful that he handled the disappointment well when Lily's mom and dad finally arrived, but without Lily. Apparently she got a runny nose and had to stay home.
for Kevin and Casey - I finally got to meet this infamous couple tonight and they are as wonderful as I had heard. They came bearing gifts, a jar of pickles for Shad and a celebration cake for daddy complete with E (a backwards 3) 5 candles. They brought some needed frivolity and light into our evening and both of the treats were enjoyed immensely.
for insurance that pays for Shad's expensive medication and the equipment he will need to have in order to go home.
that Shad put his brace on and sat in a chair several times today. Wearing the brace and becoming more mobile is the next big step for him and he was very brave even though it wasn't what he wanted to do.
P.S. While you are keeping your eyes peeled for an ambulance could you look for a moving van too? They just might need one to get all the stuff home that they are accumulating.
Monday, November 12, 2012
Shadrach and the Fiery Furnace
My grandson's name is Shadrach. His name comes from one of my favorite Old Testament stories found in the book of Daniel - chapter 3. The other day as my thoughts were drawn to him and his parents I felt inspired to re-read this scripture story. Here's a synopsis of it with a little background information.
About 600 years before Jesus Christ was born, King Nebuchadnezzar of Babylon besieged Jerusalem and took captive many of Israel's finest citizens. Among those deported to Babylon were four young men from the tribe of Judah: Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah.
When Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-nego courageously took their stand before Nebuchadnezzar, they didn't know with certainty that God would deliver them. They had no assurance they would survive the flames. But they stood firm anyway.
And now, my daughter and son-in-law embrace their brave little man in their furnace of affliction and stand firm also, putting their trust in our Heavenly Father's love and his plan for their family. Their faith in their Savior, Jesus Christ, is strong and He will support them in their time of need.
We do not know what the future holds for our family. We know that the God we serve is able to deliver Shadrach from this burning, fiery furnace and we have faith and hope that he will, but if not, we join with other faithful servants in whatever age, in vowing to worship the one true God, regardless of the outcome.
It's the only way.
my testimony.
modern medicine.
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Fourth of July in San Diego
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| Many thanks to my friend, Lucy, who taught me how to make a collage and post it on my blog! |
Those of us in San Diego had a fun-filled day
which started with a 7:57 AM ward breakfast of pancakes, hash browns, bacon, sausage, orange juice and a stirring reading of the Declaration of Independence complete with signers' names and state of residence. I am truly grateful for the founding fathers and the many sacrifices they made so I could live in this free country and agree that they should be recognized, especially on this day, but I felt bad for the boy scout who had to cook a ton of pancakes and then got recitation duty as well.
The oldest daughter, the grandson and I, along with the young women of the ward and their leaders, gathered last night to make decorations for the breakfast. The daughter was in charge of pin wheel production and she did a fine job.
I was in charge of potty runs with the 2-year-old and he and I excelled at our responsibilities as well. We were also excellent cookie and cupcake tasters.
After the breakfast we went home and focused on completing the daughter's patriotic wreath for her front door. She glued,
while I pinned,
and the oldest son tried to keep the grandson entertained, with some wild chair spinning, so he wouldn't continually steal the spool of wire and unwind it all over the backyard.
His attempts worked a small portion of the time, but eventually the wreath was finished and placed in its official home.
Good job daughter!
After lunch some of us had rest time
and some of us went shopping at the Avenue "store closing sale" where we found lots of bargains.
We had a wonderful barbecue for dinner. The oldest son grilled the hamburgers to perfection and the corn on the cob tasted just like it should on the 4th of July, and then we each made our own personal patriotic fruit tarts
and gobbled them down. YUMMY!
This was followed by some quality time spent taking Fourth of July photos of the grandson.
Which he didn't think was nearly as fun as we did. He did enjoy having his own opportunity to take pictures though
and pretend bull fighting with his uncle.
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| The daughter also made this cute quilt that you see in all of these pictures. Didn't she do a good job? |
We discussed going into San Diego to watch the fireworks over the bay, but decided we didn't feel like fighting the crowds and waiting for hours with the 2-year-old. We voted to stay home and take our chances that we could see the local display out the daughter's bedroom window.
There were a couple of trees that got in the way of some of the blasts,
but over-all I really enjoyed reclining on the bed and watching the fireworks as the grandson danced around exclaiming with excitement.
It was a good thing we chose not to attend the big city show because they had a computer malfunction and the fireworks all shot off at the same time resulting in a huge display that lasted approximately 9 seconds.
The son-in-law did his celebrating in Hawaii, the youngest son worked and then shot off fireworks at the park with his friends (and possibly the police), and the youngest daughter went to the rodeo and firework show in Idaho. Hopefully they all had as much fun as I did!
Today I am thankful for
my American citizenship.
Freedom.
and the signers of the Declaration of Independence.
Delaware George Read• Caesar Rodney• Thomas McKean Pennsylvania George Clymer• Benjamin Franklin• Robert Morris• John Morton• Benjamin Rush• George Ross• James Smith• James Wilson• George Taylor Massachusetts John Adams• Samuel Adams• John Hancock• Robert Treat Paine• Elbridge Gerry New Hampshire Josiah Bartlett• William Whipple• Matthew Thornton Rhode Island Stephen Hopkins• William Ellery New York Lewis Morris• Philip Livingston• Francis Lewis• William Floyd Georgia Button Gwinnett• Lyman Hall• George Walton Virginia Richard Henry Lee• Francis Lightfoot Lee• Carter Braxton• Benjamin Harrison• Thomas Jefferson• George Wythe• Thomas Nelson, Jr. North Carolina William Hooper• John Penn• Joseph Hewes South Carolina Edward Rutledge• Arthur Middleton• Thomas Lynch, Jr.• Thomas Heyward, Jr. New Jersey Abraham Clark• John Hart• Francis Hopkinson• Richard Stockton• John Witherspoon Connecticut Samuel Huntington• Roger Sherman• William Williams• Oliver Wolcott Maryland Charles Carroll• Samuel Chase• Thomas Stone• William Paca
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Making Sugar Cookies
Sunday, January 1, 2012
The Passage of Time
They think they are old enough to put OUR puzzle together
and don't leave us any room at the table.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Free Zoo Trip #2
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
My Good Friend Jo-Ann
We got the purchase order, ate lunch and appreciated all of the appropriate oohs and aahs that the baby received and then it was time for the real fun to begin. We told the driver that the first stop was Jo-Ann's. He said "You mean Jo-Ann." Apparently during the many visits to the fabric store that the son-in-law has made with the daughter since he joined the family he has determined that the official title of this business is Jo-Ann - singular and not Jo-Anns - plural or Jo-Ann's - possessive.

Well, I will be the first to admit that I call this store Jo-Ann's. Always have and probably always will. I will even go as far as to say that I thought perhaps the official name of the store was Jo-Ann's and I have a few canceled checks in my possession to prove it. Well, now I know that I have been mistaken all these years, but I doubt that will quickly change how I refer to this store. The son-in-law went on to expound "you don't say you are going to Wal-marts or Targets do you?" He is absolutely correct. I have never once in my life said I was going to Targets.
Of course, this conversation got me started thinking about why this is. Why do I call the JoAnn fabric store Jo-Anns but have no trouble calling Target Target or Wal-mart Wal-mart? Now, I have already said that I might have possibly just been confused about the name of the store, but I am pretty sure I would have still called it Jo-Anns regardless. Jo-Ann just sounds wrong to me.
After much musing on this topic I have finally come up with a logical explanation. It all goes back to the relationship that have with this store. Obviously, through my many frequent visits to this business I have developed a strong and lasting friendship. Just as I would not say I am going to Kim or Denise or Moana when I visit one of my good friends I don't say I am going to Jo-Ann. Actually I think this has something to do with the English language. When I say I am going to Kim's the word house is inferred even though it is not said and therefore the name becomes possessive as in Kim's house and the s is added. When I go to the fabric store I think of it as belonging to my good friend Jo-Ann. I can even envision this Jo-Ann person in my head. She is about my age and she is happy and friendly and funny and extremely talented, not unlike many of my other friends. Sometimes she employs grouchy, overworked individuals in her store, but that just shows how truly charitable she really is. Therefore when I head off to the fabric store to make a purchase I am going to my buddy Jo-Ann's store and the s makes perfect sense. I have no such vision of Target (the person) in my head and as far as Wal-mart goes, well I can conjure up Sam from the commercials that I have seen but he seems to reserve his friendships for people who belong to his club and since it costs money to join his club I just can't get too excited about pursuing that relationship.
Now, back to our shopping experience. The daughter and I had a wonderful time at JoAnn's and found some exciting after Christmas bargains. We enjoyed ourselves so much that perhaps we stayed longer than we had intended. At least that is probably what the men folk in the car were thinking.
Hey, it was a nice day for an afternoon nap in the parking lot of my friend Jo-Ann's store.Today I am grateful for
a yummy chicken salad sandwich with pecans and dates.
a proud grandpa who loves his grandson and isn't afraid to let that love show.
a patient son-in-law.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Where did November go?

Is anyone besides me feeling a little stressed?
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Free Zoo Trip
It's a good thing that we didn't pay a lot of money to get the baby in because he didn't even open his eyes the entire three hours we were there.It's been a while since I have been to the zoo (because I am too cheap to pay to get in) and a few things have changed since the last time I was there. They have added a new path to the children's area.
This was a really dumb addition, in my opinion. You use to walk down a short hill. Now you switch back and forth on a path that has 5 or 6 turns. There is nothing to look at, just a concrete path with wood railings. We decided this is the zoo's attempt to increase the patron's physical exercise.Here is my token picture of some animals at the zoo.

I liked these javelinas hairstyles. They all looked like punk rockers.
I kept wanting to get the baby out of the stroller to take his picture, but the youngest son didn't think he wanted to wake up. He decided he could pose for pictures in his place. Here he is pretending to be Ariel.
I thought this was a really cool Saguaro slide.
The son said it was a tight fit.
This is the picture I turned around to take while the stroller continued to move on down the hill. The daughter was screaming, but no babies were injured in the process.
Now the two of them like to look at this picture and laugh at how dumb I am.The oldest daughter and I both agreed that we needed a picture so the baby would know he went to the zoo, so here it is.


I'm sure we'll come again when the grandbaby is a little more interested. Maybe the first full weekend in December, since it's free.
Today I am grateful for
kids that are willing to do things with me.
a daughter who likes puzzles as much as I do.
a husband who washes my van while I just play.



